Defeated

I'm the most out of shape I think I've ever been. I know what I need to do to turn it around but it just seems pointless because in just a couple of days I'll be back to my lazy slugness again. So why even try? I guess you could point out that if I don't even attempt to change, I never will. But it sure seems like I never will anyways, so why even try?

I'm feeling defeated. Defeated by my addiction. Defeated by my laziness. Defeated by my body.