Is there anything in this world yummier than butter chicken? (well except Chicken Tikka Masala of course). Dinner last night at a new (to use) restaurant with new friends. An authentic indian restaurant with an authentic indian :)
Been doing research on the organization Food Addicts Anonymous. I've recently realized that my food issues are truly an addiction in every sense of the word. What I'm reeling with now is the idea that I am going to have to abstain from certain foods -- for the rest of my life. That idea terrifies me. I don't know how alcoholics do it. It scares me to think of taking away my emotional crutch. What will I do when I feel happy, feel sad, feel stressed, feel ... Food is such a huge part of my life. I think about it morning, noon and night. What will I eat now, how will that affect what I will eat later in the day, what can I get away with eating that won't make me sound like a big piggy. All I do is think about food and when/what I'm going to eat next.
And really, no sugar, flour or wheat for the rest of my life. No more birthday cake, no more brownies, no more bread, no more crackers, no more Little Debbies, no more Halloween candy, no more xmas cookies.
Ok, so really I'm just scared that I will again fail. But I could right a whole article on the art of failing. So I'll save that for another day.
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