Butter Chicken

Is there anything in this world yummier than butter chicken? (well except Chicken Tikka Masala of course). Dinner last night at a new (to use) restaurant with new friends. An authentic indian restaurant with an authentic indian :)

Been doing research on the organization Food Addicts Anonymous. I've recently realized that my food issues are truly an addiction in every sense of the word. What I'm reeling with now is the idea that I am going to have to abstain from certain foods -- for the rest of my life. That idea terrifies me. I don't know how alcoholics do it. It scares me to think of taking away my emotional crutch. What will I do when I feel happy, feel sad, feel stressed, feel ... Food is such a huge part of my life. I think about it morning, noon and night. What will I eat now, how will that affect what I will eat later in the day, what can I get away with eating that won't make me sound like a big piggy. All I do is think about food and when/what I'm going to eat next.

And really, no sugar, flour or wheat for the rest of my life. No more birthday cake, no more brownies, no more bread, no more crackers, no more Little Debbies, no more Halloween candy, no more xmas cookies.

Ok, so really I'm just scared that I will again fail. But I could right a whole article on the art of failing. So I'll save that for another day.

604 Steps

Yesterday we ventured up to Amicalola Falls in North Georgia. I needed a victory to re-boost my self confidence. At Amicalola they have a trail that traverses up the mountain adjacent to the water-fall. It involves 604 steps -- that's roughly 30 flights of stairs. And I'm happy to announce that I made it all the way to the top. We stopped every 50 steps or so to take a 30 seconds to catch our breath but still, I made it. We took the none steps trail down. It wound more through the woods with many switchbacks and even some flat areas.

My butt and legs are not as sore today as I thought they would be but I was feeling it this morning none-the-less.

Mission accomplished!

Defeated

I'm the most out of shape I think I've ever been. I know what I need to do to turn it around but it just seems pointless because in just a couple of days I'll be back to my lazy slugness again. So why even try? I guess you could point out that if I don't even attempt to change, I never will. But it sure seems like I never will anyways, so why even try?

I'm feeling defeated. Defeated by my addiction. Defeated by my laziness. Defeated by my body. 

Take Three

Well, here we are 5 years from my last post! A few things have changed, but for the most part my life is pretty much the same. So here's the highlights:

• I'm still struggling with my weight. I'm now at about 280, so that's good I guess given where I was back in 2008. 
• I am also dealing with infertility, which is most likely a result of my weight. 
• My business is changing as my business partner has decided to move on to different things.
• My dad passed away almost 2 years ago.
• We've adopted a third cat. Going from two to three surprising adds a lot more time to their care.
• My 20 year high school reunion is coming up in just a couple of weeks -- yikes!

So there's the highlights of my life. I'll expand on those over the next couple of posts. I have lots to explore and post about. Hoping that posting will help to keep my focused on my journey and not loose sight of the goal.

TGIF!

How to repel mosquitoes

I just received this in a e-letter from one of the North Georgia Mountain Cabin Rental Companies (Blue Sky Cabin Rentals). Given it is that time of year again, I felt inclined to share this new knowledge.

• Use Bounce fabric softener sheets...just wipe on & go...Great for Babies
• Take one Vitamin B-1 (Thiamine Hydrochloride 100mg)  tablet a day April through October
• Rub on some Vick's Vapo-Rub
• Plant marigolds around the yard. The flowers give off a smell that bugs do not like. Plant some in the garden too to help ward off bugs without using insecticides
• Rub on some Avon Skin-So-Soft bath oil mixed about half and half with alcohol (this is supposedly a trick the Marines use)
• Douse yourself in Pure Vanilla - the clear, real stuff not the vanilla flavoring
• When all else fails - get a frog.

Hope you have an itch-free summer!

I'm back...again

So last night my wonderful husband told me that when he saw me thru the window from the driveway the word that popped into his head was 'fat'!

I am not joking.

Therefore I am back on track - well mostly. Well only if you don't count the two pieces of cake I had for dessert. But come on the premade Easter cake was only $2.50 at the Kroger. I couldn't pass up that deal; could I?

Went to the gym today for the first time in what feels like ages. All I did was Cardio on the elliptical machine but my whole body feels like it took a beating. Guess that is a good sign. Of course I felt awesome after my workout. Felt like I could take on anything. I felt strong, in charge, determined. Now I just feel sore.

Decided that at my 25 pound mark I'm getting a message. There us a place just next tovthe gym that had a sign today for a full body, one hour massage for only 35 bucks! Sign me up!!

TGIF

Its been almost a full week. I'm feeling pretty good. I tend to get a little run down energy wise in the mid afternoon. I'm hoping that working out will help with this.